The (Bo)ok (Ne)ver Opened

You ever want to talk and it’s not that they won’t listen, but it’s because they won’t understand

What you’ve been through, how you process it, what you’ve done with your own hands

How can anyone ever know you, when you don’t even know yourself

Mainly because the things that break you, you always put on the bottom shelf

It’s not that you never pick it up, but it’s because you don’t want to look

Who wants to read the words and look at the pictures of a sad book

You try to put it in the past and move on with your life

But the truth is, the shadow always follows causing you strife

You want to open the book, you want to read the chapters

But if you can’t get past the introduction then why does the rest even matter

What’s so scary? What’s so sad? What are you afraid of?

It’s in this book that tells you everything that you are made of

If this book didn’t exist who would you be?

A better version of yourself or avoiding conflict purposely

It’s going through the hard times that make the good times so good

I don’t know if I believe that, I liked the life better living under a hood

Ignorant to the world and everything happening around me

That’s when I was the happiest, only worrying about me

But then there’s this wonderful thing called emotions and memories

Makes you wonder what could have been and things you wish you’d never seen

Sometimes you don’t need an image to scar you for life

Just a few small words is all it takes to have you not thinking right

You hear it over and over again, to the point it turns into a melody

But all your ears are doing are bleeding and your heart is falling apart piece by piece

It’s a slow process making the pain much worse

Making you wonder what you did with your life to deserve such a curse

But I guess that’s when you realize that you need to pick up the pieces of your heart

You realize that those pieces were only there for the start

It’s like a child slowing losing their baby teeth

You are growing your adult heart and that will bring you much peace

It doesn’t make the past different or any easier to swallow

But your new heart is like the chaser that always follows

It doesn’t taste any better, but the burn is much shorter

Allowing you to focus, allowing you to bust through the boarders

You can’t re-shape the past, but you can certainly change your future

But there’s no cheat codes, no promo codes, not even a computer

You have to do this on your own, you have to do this for you

Break down the barriers, read the book, there may be more than one or two

It won’t always be easy, but it also won’t always be so hard

The more you work at it, the more you conquer it, you are sure to go far

The longer you wait, the less time you have to live

Relax your mind, open the book, and start to begin