S(i)[listen]ce

Silence.

What do you do with it?

How long can you last?

Are you there?

How many people actually continued scrolling? Did they just see a blank page and ignore the rest or were you curious as to if I would actually write a one word blog.

That’d actually be kinda cool, I think. You might find it rather boring though.

I’ve found myself in silence quite frequently these days. Not a good or a bad thing, but for different reasons. Sometimes I feel as if the silence is necessary, as if I am trying to distance myself from a situation. Other times I find myself silent because I’m still trying to figure out if the noise would be worth it. I like to think sometimes the common silence is actually just a build up of what is going to be and not what has happened. Sometimes silence is necessary for growth while other times it can just be annoying.

What about the times when we are silent because we have to be? All of a sudden you are overcome with this urge to make as much noise as possible. Sometimes you just want to scream. I think it’s quite bizzare that we can get the same feeling from doing opposite things. I scream and I feel relieved. I am quite and I can still feel that same sense of relief. I guess it is just a situational thing, but it’s weird how our body responds in those situations.

It’s amazing what can happen in the silence. How much your mind can think of one event and create 1,000,000 different scenarios. How much anger or happiness can come in that moment. How much time do you spend thinking about an event or what might happen, but then it actually never happens? Is that wasted time or was there some type of benefit that occurred while you were sitting there obsessing over the event?

Silence. Silence seems to be such a powerful tool to me. Lots of things can be accomplished in silence, but lots of things can also be destroyed. I'd like to think that I use silence effectively so I am always benefited by it, but then again my silence might be misinterpreted for something else and then a whole new story unfolds.

Listen.

Listen to the silence. Let it speak to you. How does it make you feel? Does it make you want to break the silence or does it calm you? Just because there is noise, doesn't mean it's not silent. Just because words are being spoken doesn't mean it's not silent. Lots of time people fill the air with unnecessary noise just because they can't stand the silence, but to me they aren't making any noise. Why waste your breath if you're words are of no value. Why waste your time when you know it can be better spent somewhere else. Listen to noise. Why is it there? Is it trying to distract you? Is it trying to cover up something else occurring? Is it simply because the other person is too afraid to face silence?

Why is the silence there? Is it because you weren't listening. Is it even silent? Maybe it's not silent, but you aren't listening so you can't hear. Maybe the silence is the noise. Maybe it's the silence you were suppose to be listening to all along.

Silence. Use it wisely.